Wednesday, November 26, 2008 ♥
@ 9:22 PM
I'm so sorry my readers.
But i think you all will not want to see all this.
No matter what, I want to let you know how i feel.
And I might be using some expletives.
I'm so sorry.
I will try not to use it ok?
I wonder what did i actually do that is wrong.
Its not like I actually did something that disappoints you.
Wondering why you need to do all these things.
It hurts you know?
Nahs.
I think you will never ever understand.
All this while, I been trying to be by your side.
Though my actions may not seemed to be.
I've got to burry all this feeling inside myself.
Hoping that you will not need to worry about me.
I admit I have not done alot things for you.
But every other things that I do, its all for you.
I guess you won't believe it.
You will just think, 'wa, that larry neglects me agains!'
Ya right.
Its so true that I had neglected you before.
But i realised that you don't like that kind of feelings.
So I've been trying to change myself.
Yesterday you did talk to me on Msn.
And you got no reply from me.
You know what?
I was helping my mother, doing some stuffs.
And got tired, so i sms-ed you before I go to bed.
And when i woke up this morning, I saw your Msn's message.
And thought it was early in the morning, so I decided to reply you later.
Yet what did I get?
I got nothing from you, worse, you decided to ignore me for one day!
wondering what the fish did I actually do wrong!
Ya la, its my fault for not checking my Msn before going to bed la.
I got tired, so whats so wrong about going to bed when I'm tired?
Do you know anything about this?
You know nothing!
Yet I was punished with all this you had to give me.
Do you know how I felt when i actually read your blog?
I bet you don't know, and will never know.
Cause the feeling will never be expressed in this blog.
Its all in a bottle, where the beautiful fishes actually make them look wonderful.
Where the clear blue sea wash away all the fear, anger, sadness and jealousy.
The rainbow stretching from the sky, making me think that the sky is just a stretch away.
When all this add together, it makes a wonderful picture in my mind.
I don't know what else I could say.
And please, do not cry when you see this.
Even if this post is making you sad.
You don't have to regret doing all this to me.
Because I will understand how you feel.
Even though I might feel, (sad, angry, disappointed, scared?).
I've really got nothing to say anymore.
All I want you to know is, after you think over this le, come back to find me.
I will always be there for you.
